EXCiTEMENT!!

...moving, leanna, inspections, ultrasound, ..where to start!



Moving back in: we've been back in our lovely house for about a month now! We are totally enjoying the COOLNESS of the A/C. It was a disgusting 4 wks living in temp housing but we made it through. We've managed to unpack & organize MOST of the house. The only room that's left is the NURSERY! We unpacked & organized aLot this past weekend. We hope to COMPLETE the cLearing of her room this coming weekend. So, we can move her furniture in & start NESTING & decorating her room!!

Inspection frenzy: for the last 2wks we've been dealing with inspections. I passed all 3 of the inspections, I think all I have left is 1 more training. Soon, I will be a CERTiFiED iN HOME DAYCARE PROViDER!! In the meantime, I've been babysitting a 5yr old lil dude for a few hours this week. It's been a bit challenging since I've only been used to a TODDLER! His parents want me to incorporate a learning curriculum;ABCs, 123s..the whole hoopla! Once I become certified I can place him in a contract and all that technical stuff!! Wouldn't be so bad managing a daycare and since dealing with the lil dude, I think I want to care for only 4yr old & younger. We shall see..

BaBy Ailea: Her arrival is just around the corner! We hope to have her NURSERY set up real soon!! Over the weekend I managed to wash & fold all of Leanna's baby clothes. Still need to wash; socks, bibs, hats & whatever randoms I come across. We've purchased her very own outfits here & there. So she can maintain her OWN iDENTiTY;It's a must according to daddy!!
Over the weekend we FiNALLY did her 4d ultrasound session at Bakersfield. A LOVELY 2 hr drive, sonic for lunch, and almost 40minute wait in the office. It was all worth it, we had an HOUR session, 91 pix, dvd of the session, 4 color prints & 3 b&w prints!! It was awesome, she was napping the entire session, funny! But the technician managed to get some GREAT shots!!....she reminds me SOo MUCH of Newborn baby Leanna!! It's amazing! We SERiOUSLY can't wait to meet her. We still haven't talked about the birthing plan obviously natural like Leanna's birth. Epidural is definately an option depending on how i progress. Im also debating whether to iNDUCE or NOT!??!! [Due July 4th] My youngest sis flies into LAX June 28, and i most definately want to see her once she steps off the plane, well gets to the baggage claim, haha.
So, do i endure a 3hr drive out to LAX or enjoy a "LOVELY"car ride in the backseat with my 2 girls?!?! Ughhh...OH, my last prenatal checkup [5.13] I had only gained a 1/2lb from the check up on [4.15]. AWESOME, doubt I'll be that lucky at my next check up, which are now every 2wks until I'm due!!

Leanna: What can we say about Leanna??!?! OMG, we love her to pieces! She is just soo damn SMART;EVERYDAY she has a new word or question or sentence. We sometimes are completely amazed at what comes outta her mouth. She has full blown conversations, it's the sweetest!! She definately knows all about Ailea and at first she would pronounce the name AIWEA! The more she says it, the more it sounds right! She comes over to the belly & says baby, hugs, kisses...asks what she is doing...so cute! I just love Leanna and she will be the SWEETEST big sis!! She has soo much to look foward to in the next coming mths once she turns 3;preschool,DANCE & still enrolled in gymnastics! I cant believe I'll have a 3 yr old by summer's end!! OMG, 3!! ahhhh

FAMiLY: We've been doing pretty good. I'm still working on myself, on my patience!! My weekly counseling sessions are totally paying off. I have my slips, I become incredibly overwhelmed..i'm pregnant! He's been doing an OUTSTANDiNG job supporting me in whatever. He's a AWESOME daddy and he knows that. Leanna truly has 2 AMAZiNG OVERLY LOViNG PARENTS;she is LUCKY! We love her to PiECES!!! And we have MORE LOVE to offer Ailea!! We just cant wait for the newest addition to our family!




Guess WHAT!?!???!?!

I'm going to be a MOMMY, again!!!

SniffSniff

Ughhh, i absolutely HATE sickness!! Leanna has a mild virul infection or something like that. After a weekend of coughing & runny nose. Monday morning called and after a few tries in the 7am hr of calling medical; i got an appt for 2pm. Leanna totally woKe up a tiRed-sick MESS..just in the first hour she was crying miserably over what?? I have no cLue but it was driving me crazy and I ask & ask what's wrong..blah blah blah...She had several of these random cranky outburts well into lunch. Finally i put her down for a quick nap about 1230! she knocked out pretty quickly..and i had to rudely awake her about 20min before her 2pm appt. She was just no wanting to get up, finally we got out to to the medical office! When they were checking her vitals; they said she had a fever. I was like, wtf...way to go mom. I even felt her head and figured the warmness was from her being tucked in bed!!! So...we waited to be taken back..after another 20min..blah blah..doctor basically said she had some swollen limph notes(sp) located on her neck and it was probably due to the coughing and well, runny nose obviously relieving the musuc. [GROSS] Dealing w/my own runny, excess, mucus nose if sick enough while pregnant!! But having to cLean off Leanna's, i seriously have to control myself from gagging!! ughh
Anywho, doctor did recommend a humidifier to help w/her breathing, awwww! and also precsribed benadryl to help stop some of the mucus development.. So, here we are HOPING to get over this nastyness!! My poor Leanna hardly ever gets sick! but i'm glad i called medical first thing in the morning, a weekend was good enough for me to deal with, and to think i was just thinking it was allergies!

days go by

geez, it's been foRever and a day since my last post!
Here goes nothing; It's midnight; I'm hungRy once again, irritated over who knows what and listening to him snoRe! hmm, that's pRobably what has me iRRitated. [lol]
::breath:: I ate a few gRapes like 30min ago, and i was a bit fiLLEd and now, i',m getting hungRy i absoLutely refuse on getting anything else down. I'm beyond thiRsty and constantLy sipping water and constantLy peeing. Ughhhh/ This baby is getting moRe & moRe active as [days go by] and sometimes it scaRes the cRap out of me. seRiously! Right now, i feeling the rubbing sensation from within as if it's sliding it's knee, butt, arm, something across the tummy. And it's not the most comfortabLe feeling, none of it is really. You'd think i'd be used to it, some of it. It's only been 3yrs to the date since I was last carrying a gRowing baby within. LITERALLY!
Hmmmm; if the baby arrives around it's due date [july 4th], Leanna and "it" will be approximately 2yrs, 11mths and 1 weeks apart..WOW! Leanna will be turning 3 [aug 26th] !! So much to look fowaRd to this summer. Now, only IF the doctor can confiRm the baby's gender at the next appt...Let's see; he did say that it looked like a giRl and the lines...blah blah...so, I'm cRossing my fingeRs, I just want to get a complete positive resuLt...RegaRdless if he can ACCURATELY deteRmine the sex or not. We will be getting our own pRivate 4d ultrasound session...when I'm 30+wks along [May/june]. I cant wait to see facial detail, fat on the face, awww, i can't wait!!!! Well, let's see if I can faLL asLeep; this baby has caLmed down some and I need to shake those snoRes outta daddy!!!!

[TIME OUT]

Well, well, well...Today has been quite a day!
I woke up, thanks to him around 6:30 since he has to be soo loud using the bathroom. In result, I had to use it too. I couldn't fall back to sleep...So, I started myspacing, facebooking, yahooing on my cell, as usual! I started waking Leanna up with tickles anc rubbing of the back. I love when she wakes up smiling and I lover hearing her giggle even more. YES, she was in bed with us. I didn't even hear when she came over. And I usually am the first to hear her walk into the room between the hrs of 1-3AM!! We got outta bed about 7:15, I started with breakfast. I was pretty awake with energy! We ate and then about 8, i felt beyond rushed; ironing our clothes. We were going to get some groceries while daddy wen to his appoinment at 8:30. We dropped him off and headed to Stater Bros., where my brain seemed to escape me! I had a list of a few items and grabbed others along the way. I also grabbed a Promegrate..which I've never tried but have been wanting to. yay!!
I think I'll be trying it in a few! We got a call from a friend once we arrive home and ended going to the park for nearly 2 hrs. Leanna had a good time, she always does. Then ended up going to an indoor playdate where she was her lil friends. Hung out there for an hr or so. By the time we got home it was pushing 2pm. So, I changed her clothes, undies on, pee on the potty, wash hands..and go to bed. She hasnt napped in a few weeks. SO, I was pushing it BUT to my surprise she fell asleep within 10MIN! yay!!

Today was a great day! Even though, I was exhausted through it all, I'm glad she saw & interacted with friends...it's what she enjoys!

One Minute

Write what might go through some one's mind--or what you hope goes through their mind--when they first meet you.



Hmm, An interpretation of myself. Wow, She;s pretty mellow, easy-going and not too bad of a gal. She's a mother, wife, daughter, sister and BADASS friend. She's someone I wouldn't mind chatting with again.

HAHAH...who knows, most of it sounds TRUE to me...

My Girly GirL

here's to 2009!

Ironically, a day or two before the new yr rang in. Leanna was all about wearing dresses. So, why not continue her lil girly girl phase. She has plenty of dresses to last her weeks. And she is just the cutest although she's still getting the hang of Hiking it aLL the way up when she uses the potty. Ughh! Even though, the past few days have also been difficult, since she's been doing horribly with using the potty!

::sighs::

Anywho, I love getting her hair all done up even if it's just pigtails and LOVING the time we spend picking a dress out. It's pretty nippy out there these days BUT since we are indoors MOST days, I figure this is JUST Oodles of FUN! I totally love watching her dance, and twirl..you can tell she loves it too. Then she has trouble trying to figure out which shoes to wear and has often wore two different shoes. haha. It's adorably FUN!

I love my lil girly GIRL!


[Listening carefully while on the phone[12.31.08]]

[waiting for 2009 to ring in]

[a random pose of hers[1.2.09]]

[Lovely dress from Mexico, it was a bit snug, but we love it[1.3.09]]

Baby Questionnaire

About The Father:

• Name?: Manuel
• Age?: 26
• Are you still together?: Married 4yrs

About Your Pregnancy:

• Is this your first pregnancy?:No, 2nd
• When did you find out you were pregnant?: Oct29
• Was it planned?: YES!
• What was your first reaction?: OMGoodness, SERIOSULY...finally
• Who was with you when you found out?: I was still sitting on the potty texting
• Who was the first person you told?: He ironically texted me asking "what's for lunch?" and I replied, "a possible pregnancy"
• How did your parents react?: Excited of course, they had been waiting
• How far along are you? 13wks
• What was your first symptom?: nausea & diharrea
• What is your due date?:July4th
• Do you know the sex of the baby?: Not yet
• If so, what is it?:
• Have you picked out names?: We have a few in mind
• If so, what are they?: Ailea/Audrina Nicky OR Max/Manuel Anthony
• How much weight have you gained?: uhmmm
• Do you have stretch marks?:from the first one yes
• Have you felt the baby move? I kinda sorta think I feel fluttering in there...
• Have you heard the heartbeat?: Yes!

About the birth:

• Home or hospital birth?:hospital
• Natural or medicated birth?:I'm hoping for another natural birth
• Who will be in the delivery room with you?: Hubby
• Will you breastfeed?: I will try my hardest
• Do you think you'll need a c-section? I sure hope NOT!
• Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?: duh!
• What's the first thing you might say to him/her? "hi"
• Would you let someone videotape the birth?:no thank you
• Are you excited about the birth, or scared?: I'm ready!

[baby names]

So, a few weeks after we found out we were expecting. He started up with names, boys to be exact. Ever since we were pregnant with Leanna, he was loving the name, MAX! I wasn't at all into it. It reminds me of a dog and well...a friend of ours has the name for her son. But he is still all over that name and of course a JR.

I on the other hand keep thinking of girls names. SADLY, I wouldn't mind another drama queen. I wanted a boy at first but Leanna came along. I wouldn't have it any other way. I love her to pieces. SOoo...it's bizzaire to only consider girl names. At this point I love Audrina or Ailea. I don't know what's up with it starting with an "A", just coincidence. However, my SIL has 2 daughters (1yr old and 1mth old) whose names both start with "A". Plus, my sister has her almost 8mth old with an "A" as well.. Crazy, huh???

Whenever we came to the conclusion of naming Leanna, her middle name was another issue. He wanted to name her Alice (his mother's nickname) wahh..I opted with her Original name, Elisa! Which I absolutely adore. I sometimes want to call her (Leanna) that but I have the funny idea of calling her that once she is a teenager. Who knows if I'll stick with it. haha. When we decided to name our baby girl, Leanna Elisa. We agreed that since we are giving her, his mom's name as the middle name. THAT, if we had another girl, she would carry my mom's middle name, NICKY. [confused yet??]

With that said, thus far I like; Ailea Nicky OR Audrina Nicky. I have about..hmm...6 more months of thinking ...but then again, we'll the determine the sex soon enough. So we can narrow it down further more.....Whew.

Christmas 2008

It was an extremely exhausting day. For starters, I was awoken to no ones' blame (hmmm)
It was in the 8am hr. His watch alarm went on a little while after. I threw a hand at him since it startled me. We then started to chat and cuddle. A first in weeks. Since Leanna has been sleeping over in our room off/on for weeks! She woke soon after...soo much for cuddling. .LOL
We yelled "Merry Christmas, ho ho ho" and got her all wild up about opening gifts. She was ready! I had to give her a quick shower, do her hair up and daddy made us a quick breakfast. I wasn't in any rush to open gifts...hehe. We found the disney parade on and turned it off once we started with the gifts. Leanna went to town, she absolutely loved OPENING PRESENTS! She had soo many expressions and super cheesy smiles as she posed for the camera with each individual present. I got a few surprise presents, thanks to my man. I sure do hate surprised [seriously]. It upset him to see my disbelief! Cuz of course, I started to ruin the moment by pushing the item away and saying WHY!? I can't help it I didn't like surprised. LOL! We didn't do an extravagant amount of presents this year like last. We didn't really want to get Leanna toys. Since she has plenty, a room full. Plus, she doesn't even take a moment to pick u[p] after herself which is getting BEYOND annoying! So we have to work on that. After presents where opened, I was extremely exhausted, just tired. I had only been awake for nearly 2 hrs and I was already laying across the floor. HHAHA. We then just hung out with leanna and her new gifts, showing her how to use this and that. Watching TV. About noon, I started the preparations for our spectacular event, our first Turkey feast ever!!! It turned out gREAT and I'm still disgustingly FULL! Here are some pix of LEANNA the cheeziest kid I KNOW. haha

[Happiness is Me]

[Tuesday December 16, 2008] We went this morning for the first ultrasound. In order to determine how far along I was and the due date. Well, to my surprise it was pretty accurate to what we had already determined. I am 11weeks & 5 days. The due date is JULY 4TH!

It was rather instresting because, I've never had that type of ultrasound before. You can just imagine. Leanna saw the baby and I think she understood but then again who knows. We also saw the heart beating and even got to HEAR it! I was amazed and friggin HAPPY!!

After the ultrasound was completed, I began to mention my concerns for my morning sickness and such. He said hmm, possibly it's a boy since the symptoms are different from being pregnant w/Leanna. Then he said the heartbeat was slower, so there lies the possibility. We shall see....

Time Flies

So, it's been a few since i posted anything. I've been blogging on myspace rather than here. Hmmm...Let's see. As i sit here typing away, leanna is behind me dancing , shaking her thang to Beyonce's "single ladies". She refers to the songs as, the "UH-OH UH0H song". That's too hilarious!
Today has been a challenging day to say the least. It was one of the worst days of "morning sickness" thus far. I woke up rather early, due to his cell phone alarm going off & off. So, I was beyond annoyed. Leanna woke up about 10minutes later and since I had napped alot the day before. I was pretty awake&starving. I absolutely hate waking up feeling the starving sensations, it's disgusting!! blah blah. So, he finally made me some breakfast about 9ish. I ended up puking it out after 2 hrs or so. And after that the day feel to an utter disgust accompanied w/exhaustion! I managed through the day lounging on the couch in&out of naps and watching lil tv. I can't necessarily rest w/Leanna running wild and being obnoxiously loud. It's about 9pm and I still have a slight headache. Ok my keyboard is acting up and it's annoying me!!

Ho! Ho! Ho!

WOW, I've gotten quite a bit accomplished for this festive holiday!!! Let's see, we did some bargained Christmas shopping this past weekend! I purchased a few festive items yesterday along with items to make m y very own WREATH. I started with setting up by bar area with my holiday items, with candy in the jars (Chocolates&Peppermints). Then making the wreath was a tad challenging but I did it! It was my first time ever and it turned out pretty good. I'm PROUD! Today, I started off by cleaning the living room/dining room. I had to change out the fall table cloth with the Xmas tablecloth, vacuuming, rearranging..WHEW. Leanna was being a butthead but I cLeaned! The tree was purchased in the early evening today and we decorated. I still trying to figure out if I want to add more. I guess, I'll see once I get to the store and see what they have to offer. Uhmm...Next, wrapping the gifts we've gotten so far!! This year we opted for surpirses and basically told each other what we would like. I spent carelessly last month and in guilt said those ITEMS i purchased could count as my gifts. ahhaa. PLUS, I got what I was really wanting...a BABY growing in my belly and my favorite two along side! SO, I couldn't ask for anything more. Blah blah blah...He picked out his items, purchased. I was forced to pick something at the store..soooo..I shameless did. And I'm going to love it..HAHA!

In the search for a gift for myself. I found my Mommy-to-be handbag!
::ECSTATIC::

About a week n a half before Leanna was delivered, He surprised me with a handbag. I had been eyeing that handbag for about a mth, oohing and awwing over, A beautiful Dooney & Bourke...it was like $200 and something. To my COMPLETE surprise i got it ALONG with the matching wallet! SOOOoooo, I took it upon myself to make it a "MUST" and anxiously shared with him, my next D&B handbag, it was only $238. I didn't find the wallet there in store. But of course, I found it online, another $100 and something...So, I am anxiously awaiting for that..LOL!

I'm not materialistic, I PROMISE!

"Belly Laughs"

Best book ever, It was roughly 200 pages of hilarious reading. I've heard of the book, the author;Jenny McCarthy but never read it. Until last night, thanks to Christina!! I started reading it in the 930ish hr, till bout 11. Then picked it up as soon as I woke up this morning. I seriously laid in bed for an entire hour + some minutes while Leanna watched Dora. Then I started feeling a bit quesy and had to get my ass outta bed. [breakfast was needed] I made LeaNna and I a scrumptious meal complete with O.j. Which is becoming one of the greatest drinks to taste in the A.M. I never did enjoy it since it always made me use the bathroom right away but with the pregnancy it's changed. After my meal, I ran over to the couch to open up that book. Leanna was still sitting at the table finishing up her meal. I was hooked back in turning page after page! Of course, I was easily distracted with that wild 2yr old. So i went back and forth. I got a call from Esha, in the middle of our call I got a call, so i clicked over. Worst news ever! My first friggin prenatal appointment was rescheduled! I was distraught... super pissed! I had been looking foward to that damn appt, for 2 whole weeks! I am techincally 9wks at this point and wanted to CONFIRM if I was further along!!! So, there I was being reFREAKINscheduled, another 2 weeks later! I already hate this doctor and I havent even met him. He is like the only OBGYN in town, and HE so happens to have an EMERGENCY cSection and wouldn't be back in the afternoon. Doesn't a freaking Csection take like 30min. Anyways, I was pretty damn upset, My day was ruined, I was just annoyed. I continued to read the book thereafter, watched my soap opera and read during commercials. I basically finised the book around 1:30..way too many distractions.
I ABSOLUTELY enjoyed the book, I didn't want it to end!!!
I'm going to google it, because I think she was gonna have a postpregnancy book or something.

::impatiently waiting for 2weeks::

"first day"

Describe a "first day" in your life (first day of marriage, of school, at a new job, etc.)

My first day as a mother, I was a bit overwhelmed. I was still in shock of having a child to begin with. But the more N more I looked at the little human-being, the more I knew everything was going to okay. I feel in love with Leanna and have been DAILY ever since! I have an overflowing amount of joy, love and happiness when it comes to being her mother.

Days past

Whoops, So it's been some days since I've written anything. UGhhh...ttummy aches have restricted me from even wanting to sit in front of the PC. I'd rather j ust lay in bed or on the couch. Anywho, I did some rearranging today. Since, leanna has been a pain in the butt with bedtime. She has been making a habit of playing with her toys. So, I took half of the toys out of her room and moved them over to the office. That was this morning, along with cleaning that disaster zone. Since, I moved most of her toys in the office, I had to move out the chair and ottoman. I was puzzled as to where I would place it, since it's 2 big pieces of furniture. Somehow I manages to place them in the living room, Therefore rearranging the other two couches and TV! It's a little strange having a whole new piece of furniture in that room. Because it's soo limited and all 3 couches are pretty long. I managed to rearrange and vacuum with that lil brat running around crazy. I even heard a "WOW!" from here a few times. It was new and completely different to her. NOw, that's it a lil more open, well I should say a bit more seating space. And the way I set up the chair w/ the ottoman. I can totally see the 52" at the wall across from "my seat" ...I cant wait until we get that friggin TV, it's going to look BEAUTIFUL and complete the living room. Along with whatever other decore I decide to hang. Then again, there's the possible move to temp housing. WHEVER they decide to install A/C. iughhh...That's a whole other topic that quite frankly I am not looking foward to anymore...Here is it 2:28pm and I put :Leanna down in her room for NAPTIME at 1pm...She is still not sleeping and instead playing with her toys, singing and chatting. I'm a little irritated, okay, ALOT irritated..

Aches & Pains

So, I'm sitting here while they both take a considerably "late" nap. My friggin neck has been aching since this morning and if I tell him to PLZ massage it, he starts bitchin. UGh, talking about, ughh, I guess Rosanna only because you're pregnant". Friggin IDIOT, I rarely say anything when he asks me to massage/rub his feet or scratch his back??!?! wth, only lately have I been sayin NO, b/c I'm irritated when he's up in my space. LOL...the whole breathing thing for me to COOL down doesn't neccessarily work unless I'm thinking clearly before I go on a rampage of Anger.

::BLAH::

I had an interview with KMART this morning at 9:30. I didn't get out of bed until about 8:40, It took me about 30 to even get out and that's after he made me a toast w/jam. CUz I was getting the nauseous feeling that I was gonna BARF! [[yuck]] Got dressed and rushed out the door about 9:15, once I drove off, I realized. CRAP, I hadn't had anything to drink, NADA. I was thirsty & had a yucky flavor in my mouth. Luckily, I found a jolly rancher and had at it. I got there 5 min before 9:30 and sat until I was assisted in the employees area. Uhmm, some lady, came to me with my printed online application and 2 other pieces of document for me to review and correct if need be. I waited, I was getting restless b/c they had the tv on CNN and BUSH was on talking about Veteran's Day.....Uhmm, I wanted to Zzzzz. I was listening to most of his speech and I felt quite proud, b/c my husband is a Veteran and as his spouse. BuSH also honored the military families...So, I got chocked up a little. hehe.

The interviewer called me in. AND I was honestly exhausted at this point, I perked up a little and continued to answer her questions. I had about 5-6 detailed questions to answer like examples of this and that. BLAH, Overall, I felt like a failure...I got confused with the last sentence about integrity ...and couldn't bounce back gracefully. I felt like a total dumbass even after she said it was okay. She didn't have any other question after that and gave me the spill about having other applicant to review and positions open. Also telling me we'll give you a call or not in 2 weeks. Booooo...I left feeling unconfident and even more tired.

F*ck KMART! ...I still hope I get a job there.... LMAO

Child

What affect has a child, whether yours or someone else's, had on your life?

[I have 60seconds.]

Leanna has had a great impact on my everyday living. I am no longer breathing for myself, I am breathing along with her. I love that I got pregnant, enjoyed that beginning of motherhood and now I'm faced with the everyday challenge of RAISING HER! I love everything about it even it's ups and downs.

[60seconds is UP!]

Potty Training & Tutu's

So, I'm sitting here listening to Leanna's CD and watching her, feeling the air as she SPINS. I'm super dizzy even though I'm not paying attention to her, I can see her in the corner of my eye. I'm also encouraging her to use the potty!! She has a pair of undies and isn't taking it quite serious...since right now she is sitting on the toilet just making the PSssss sound and saying I'm peeing! She already had an accident. She came over to me and said, "Mama, I needPEE!" I grabbed her picked her dress up as I was about to take the undie s down ::SPILL::, I caught most of it on my hand. OH, the joys of motherhood. LOL So, here I am asking her every 10second, "do you have to pee Leanna??!!!" Whew...ON the other hand, I'm online searching for How to on TUTU's...I found a site that has pic instructions. haha, the easiest instructions ever! Since, I won the TUTU at that Holiday Party Show, I was inspired PLUS Leanna loves dressing up! So, why not learn how to make them, super easy. All I need is a few materials. TOOL being ths most important!!

PerfectlyContent

Perfectly; completely; fully; adequately.

Content; satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.

And that's exactly how I feel in the moment. Even with my eyes feeling teary after putting chopped onion away 20min ago.. jeje. I had my release appointment today. And for the first time in past appointments, I feel relieved. Like, I really released a good amount of anxiety, stress, and anger off my shoulders. Don't get me wrong I still want to fall under my blanket and cry my eyes out....but who doesn't now and then. I'm on this crazyass ride of a roller coaster. Seriously, why am I going this craziness this EARLY on! Whew..maybe just maybe because "I am overwhelmed" ... there you have it. Even if it's not the overwhelming feeling I think of when I say that word, like have tons to do; keeping the house clean, making sure Leanna has a clean diaper, feed, entertained, laundry...not that. It's the overwhelming feeling of emotions going through this body and mind of mine! It's the rush of feeling pouring outta my heart...Isn't that insane?!? I have all these emotions that just make me want to burst out in tears. Is it really the hormones or what?! Whatever, I'm ready to just relax this week has been hectic to say the least. I started the in home daycare training classes. OMG, very informative, Adult CPR, Infant & Child CPR, and First Aid. I'm enjoying taking these trainings but at the same time, I'm dealing with Parent-Child Separation Anxiety! Long story short, Leanna is all over my mind while I'm in class!!! She is in the center, like feet away the classroom I'm in. But in these past 3days, I've seen her interaction with others and I really don't enjoy it. She's a lonely kid when it comes to a group. It's probably because she doesn't know theses kids. Leanna's the friendliest kid I know!!! So, when I peeked out and say her lonely as can be, almost looking sad. I had my heart on standby, because I just wanted to run out there and grab here. But my brain was being rational. She deals with it in her own way, I assume. She doesn't say "NO" when I tell we are going to the center...Soo, I hope she can deal with it until I'm done with training or at least get more comfortable with it. OH, I applied for KMART again, and have an Interview Tuesday!!! I hope I get it, even it's a few hrs a week!! I'd be hella happy!! We shall see....

Baking, it's our new "mommy & me time" so, we ventured and it was somewhat successful. LOL! Leanna had fun helping and licking away the mix and frosting. We'll get the hang of it :D Here's our creative cake with candy toppings from our Halloween candy. Above are cupcakes!

[Halloween 08]

Happy Halloween
Trick or Treat!


Leanna had her first "official" trick or treating experince this Halloween! Plus, it was daddy's first Halloween with us. Technically this is her 3rd year. Anywho, she was uberly cute, as a bumble bee even though, I was a bit rushed getting her ready but you couldnt tell. She was having the greatest time in the world UNTIL she realized she'd have to walk from house to house. Then the tantrums started either she didnt want to walk on her own OR hold the pail. Booo, I was done about 30min into the event. But I held in, we took turns walking to the candy and carrying her. Then after almost an HR we headed back home to hand out candy of our own! It was a festive event...we had a good time catching up with some of the gals. Crystal being one of them, Noah looked adorable in his Skunk Costume. I was hoping to dress up myself but there's always next year. And by then Leanna will have a better understanding of what halloween is. We'll also have another lil person to dress up PLUS Bonita {our dog}! We will totally be having fun!! I can't wait until Halloween 09.

Leanna & Mommy

Leanna & Daddy

[[Photo taken by Crystal]]