Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Monday, August 27, 2012
Hello Again, Deployment!
We sure picked a good one, really, we did!!
The carrier is back out to sea for a back2back deployment. Sure, he only did 4 1/2 months during their last deployment. And, returned home in March. Here we are,.....roughly 4-5 months later, but that also included going underway for 2 weeks in April and then 5 weeks in June/July. A surprise, to say the least. Not really. Watch the news. It's kind of a big deal.
So, I have this husband...he's been in 11 years now...he's an amazing father and a damn good sailor.....I got no complaints. Well, he did leave CLEAN laundry behind for me to put away...
Yeahhh, I was upset that he was leaving.
Yeahhh, I was annoyed almost daily.
Yeahhh, I struggled to stay strong.
Yeahhh, I bitched.
Yeahhh, I had more proud moments because he is a Sailor.
Yeahhh, I realized, several times, that's what happens in the Navy.
Yeahhh, I was secretly excited because I was ready to take my waistline back.
Yeahhh, I was happ when we ate junk food too.
Yeahhh, I still wanted him to be home with his family.
Yeahhh, I cried and felt overwhelmed, still am/do.
Yeahhh, life goes on.
With all that, I still tried to remain positive, I've never really gone through a FULL deployment with SO many kids. It was kind of overwhelming the last deployment; 3 kids, new state, new home, new EVERYTHING!! I survived, I adjusted, I fell in love with everything there was about this place, Washington! I still love it, almost 10 months later. There is SO much to keep us entertained with, SO much. Indoors/Outdoors. I have 3 very active girls, 3 girls who enjoy the outdoors, who love to socialize. It's always been that way, it's important.
We've met some GREAT people/kids, friends.
I'm back on the fitness journey with different challenges and routines, even got the bootcamp back up. Who doesn't love a group of people wanting the same thing, plus it gets you out of the house. FUN!
I've made lists for craft projects; lots to choose from. Let the creativeness begin.
I've got a list of make-overs, organization projects, I will NEVER be bored.
I'm still going to hate to wash dishes, everyday.
I'm still going to feel overwhelmed.
I'm still gonna be annoyed when the holidays roll around.
I'm still going to be sad, that's he's not here with us.
I'm still going to keep on keepin' on.
It's not the end of the world, although, at some instances it sure does feel like it.
I'm definitely looking forward to homecoming, the girls will all be SO different but one this is certain, they will embrace their daddy with open arms, as if he wasn't gone for so long.
They love that man, and I am beyond words to how much that means to me.
Because, I love him just as much. We are just so lucky to have him, even if he isn't physically here. We are lucky.
The carrier is back out to sea for a back2back deployment. Sure, he only did 4 1/2 months during their last deployment. And, returned home in March. Here we are,.....roughly 4-5 months later, but that also included going underway for 2 weeks in April and then 5 weeks in June/July. A surprise, to say the least. Not really. Watch the news. It's kind of a big deal.
So, I have this husband...he's been in 11 years now...he's an amazing father and a damn good sailor.....I got no complaints. Well, he did leave CLEAN laundry behind for me to put away...
Yeahhh, I was upset that he was leaving.
Yeahhh, I was annoyed almost daily.
Yeahhh, I struggled to stay strong.
Yeahhh, I bitched.
Yeahhh, I had more proud moments because he is a Sailor.
Yeahhh, I realized, several times, that's what happens in the Navy.
Yeahhh, I was secretly excited because I was ready to take my waistline back.
Yeahhh, I was happ when we ate junk food too.
Yeahhh, I still wanted him to be home with his family.
Yeahhh, I cried and felt overwhelmed, still am/do.
Yeahhh, life goes on.
With all that, I still tried to remain positive, I've never really gone through a FULL deployment with SO many kids. It was kind of overwhelming the last deployment; 3 kids, new state, new home, new EVERYTHING!! I survived, I adjusted, I fell in love with everything there was about this place, Washington! I still love it, almost 10 months later. There is SO much to keep us entertained with, SO much. Indoors/Outdoors. I have 3 very active girls, 3 girls who enjoy the outdoors, who love to socialize. It's always been that way, it's important.
We've met some GREAT people/kids, friends.
I'm back on the fitness journey with different challenges and routines, even got the bootcamp back up. Who doesn't love a group of people wanting the same thing, plus it gets you out of the house. FUN!
I've made lists for craft projects; lots to choose from. Let the creativeness begin.
I've got a list of make-overs, organization projects, I will NEVER be bored.
I'm still going to hate to wash dishes, everyday.
I'm still going to feel overwhelmed.
I'm still gonna be annoyed when the holidays roll around.
I'm still going to be sad, that's he's not here with us.
I'm still going to keep on keepin' on.
It's not the end of the world, although, at some instances it sure does feel like it.
I'm definitely looking forward to homecoming, the girls will all be SO different but one this is certain, they will embrace their daddy with open arms, as if he wasn't gone for so long.
They love that man, and I am beyond words to how much that means to me.
Because, I love him just as much. We are just so lucky to have him, even if he isn't physically here. We are lucky.
Every day he's gone is just one day closer to him coming home
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Tears and Cheers!
Where to start.....
I kind of just want to go to sleep for days but the Mama/Wife dailies keep me going. So, does this little running routine, I've had the joy of taking on for the last 2 weeks!! It's almost time to say "see ya later" to him. I try not to think about it, I don't want him to leave. I want him to stay longer than the last 4 weeks.
It's Wednesday and he is back to work after his 2 weeks of leave. I've RAN to get away from the "pain" of seeing him leave and the "stress" of being the only-parent again. I know I got this, It's just the first couple of weeks are the hardest. I'm sure 8 months will "fly" by. It'll be "normal" again, you know getting back into a routine with just us girls.
Leanna is starting FIRST GRADE in 2 weeks, and she might be going to a new school, the one she is zoned to and is only a walk instead of a car/bus ride away. Still waiting on a call back.
She will be 6 years old in a few days, I just can't believe my baby is a little grown girl. She amazes us, talking so mature. Her little sassyness is cute and sometimes overwhelming but that's Leanna. You know that already.
Ailea might be starting preschool in 4 weeks, twice a week. Or, I'll be doing drop-in care again at least 2-3x a week to get her into a "school" atmosphere, she loves going to "school" She is in those Terrible Three's and I'm currently reading "Positive Discipline for Preschoolers", I need a NEW approach for her. She is So different than Leanna was at that age. Maybe, it's a middle child thing, we give her attention but I always doubt myself and wonder how much is enough. She is so brilliant, so smiley, so lively. The book has amazing insight on it and I'm happy so far.
Serena, is becoming so talkative and knows who "daddy" is. She started saying "daddy" on her own, well, I'm sure it's because she hears the girls call him that. She loves eating too. She is STILL nursing at almost 19 months. Can you believe that?!?! I know, I can't either. It's pretty amazing!!
As for me, I have another blog, where I post all things-fitness related and that's been nice. I've gained roughly 13 lbs since February, some Birth control the rest crazy-eating. So, once again, I will focus on losing those lbs, toning and getting fit. I've also got a few challenges along the way, changing up eating habits, going "clean" and picking up the BOOTCAMP classes. I also joined a local running group, Moms Run This Town. I've got a few races on the calendar, along with virtual races. And, we can't forget school, might-possibly-maybe-going to a local campus. That's going to be something crazy.
I kind of just want to go to sleep for days but the Mama/Wife dailies keep me going. So, does this little running routine, I've had the joy of taking on for the last 2 weeks!! It's almost time to say "see ya later" to him. I try not to think about it, I don't want him to leave. I want him to stay longer than the last 4 weeks.
It's Wednesday and he is back to work after his 2 weeks of leave. I've RAN to get away from the "pain" of seeing him leave and the "stress" of being the only-parent again. I know I got this, It's just the first couple of weeks are the hardest. I'm sure 8 months will "fly" by. It'll be "normal" again, you know getting back into a routine with just us girls.
Leanna is starting FIRST GRADE in 2 weeks, and she might be going to a new school, the one she is zoned to and is only a walk instead of a car/bus ride away. Still waiting on a call back.
She will be 6 years old in a few days, I just can't believe my baby is a little grown girl. She amazes us, talking so mature. Her little sassyness is cute and sometimes overwhelming but that's Leanna. You know that already.
Ailea might be starting preschool in 4 weeks, twice a week. Or, I'll be doing drop-in care again at least 2-3x a week to get her into a "school" atmosphere, she loves going to "school" She is in those Terrible Three's and I'm currently reading "Positive Discipline for Preschoolers", I need a NEW approach for her. She is So different than Leanna was at that age. Maybe, it's a middle child thing, we give her attention but I always doubt myself and wonder how much is enough. She is so brilliant, so smiley, so lively. The book has amazing insight on it and I'm happy so far.
Serena, is becoming so talkative and knows who "daddy" is. She started saying "daddy" on her own, well, I'm sure it's because she hears the girls call him that. She loves eating too. She is STILL nursing at almost 19 months. Can you believe that?!?! I know, I can't either. It's pretty amazing!!
As for me, I have another blog, where I post all things-fitness related and that's been nice. I've gained roughly 13 lbs since February, some Birth control the rest crazy-eating. So, once again, I will focus on losing those lbs, toning and getting fit. I've also got a few challenges along the way, changing up eating habits, going "clean" and picking up the BOOTCAMP classes. I also joined a local running group, Moms Run This Town. I've got a few races on the calendar, along with virtual races. And, we can't forget school, might-possibly-maybe-going to a local campus. That's going to be something crazy.
Monday, August 6, 2012
Bittersweet!
Sighss.....it's been a while!
I've been having a rough time, trying to put something in words.
I've been missing my dad terribly, lately. I've tried to not let it affect family time. All I want to do is be alone, bury my head into a pillow and sleep to not feel the pain. And, that is absolutely IMPOSSIBLE!! I think he notices when I'm falling into that, and quickly tries to distract me and have me hang out with them. Even, though I'm SCREAMING in the inside, I push myself to be with them. I hate it, I hate that it wants to take over, I hate that I can't control it, it HURTS!!
Fortunately, it's not everyday. It's just some days, some moments, and I feel the pain, handle it, ignore it, move on. What hurts the most if being away from my family. Sometimes, I wish I could just go and visit with them, but that'd make it worse. They are hurting more, they lived with him for the last 6-7years, while I was away living life with my new family.
I just wish I could still call him, and say "Hi, papi".
Onto today, it's MONDAY, and he starts Leave for 2 Weeks, tomorrow!! And, tomorrow the ship has their Deployment Prep Event, Go figure!! I've got a few plans to keep us busy!
First, cleaning/clearing the GARAGE!! I want to make it more useful, a little gym, play area!
Finish re-arranging living room and upstairs randoms.
A few family outtings; Lake, Birthday Meal Trip for Leanna....my girl will be 6 years old!
I'm not mentally ready for this upcoming deployment, but it is what it is. Physically, I am. I want my body back. It's kind of hard when he is around to workout or eat "healthy".
Such is life...until the next post.
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