Content; satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.
And that's exactly how I feel in the moment. Even with my eyes feeling teary after putting chopped onion away 20min ago.. jeje. I had my release appointment today. And for the first time in past appointments, I feel relieved. Like, I really released a good amount of anxiety, stress, and anger off my shoulders. Don't get me wrong I still want to fall under my blanket and cry my eyes out....but who doesn't now and then. I'm on this crazyass ride of a roller coaster. Seriously, why am I going this craziness this EARLY on! Whew..maybe just maybe because "I am overwhelmed" ... there you have it. Even if it's not the overwhelming feeling I think of when I say that word, like have tons to do; keeping the house clean, making sure Leanna has a clean diaper, feed, entertained, laundry...not that. It's the overwhelming feeling of emotions going through this body and mi
nd of mine! It's the rush of feeling pouring outta my heart...Isn't that insane?!? I have all these emotions that just make me want to burst out in tears. Is it really the hormones or what?! Whatever, I'm ready to just relax this week has been hectic to say the least. I started the in home daycare training classes. OMG, very informative, Adult CPR, Infant & Child CPR, and First Aid. I'm enjoying taking these trainings but at the same time, I'm dealing with Parent-Child Separation Anxiety! Long story short, Leanna is all over my mind while I'm in class!!! She is in the center, like feet away the classroom I'm in. But in these past 3days, I've seen her interaction with others and I really don't enjoy it. She's a lonely kid when it comes to a group. It's probably because she doesn't know theses kids. Leanna's the friendliest kid I know!!! So, when I peeked out and say her lonely as can be, almost looking sad. I had my heart on standby, because I just wanted to run out there and grab here. But my brain was being rational. She deals with it in her own way, I assume. She doesn't say "NO" when I tell we are going to the center...Soo, I hope she can deal with it until I'm done with training or at least get more comfortable with it. OH, I applied for KMART again, and have an Interview Tuesday!!! I hope I get it, even it's a few hrs a week!! I'd be hella happy!! We shall see....
nd of mine! It's the rush of feeling pouring outta my heart...Isn't that insane?!? I have all these emotions that just make me want to burst out in tears. Is it really the hormones or what?! Whatever, I'm ready to just relax this week has been hectic to say the least. I started the in home daycare training classes. OMG, very informative, Adult CPR, Infant & Child CPR, and First Aid. I'm enjoying taking these trainings but at the same time, I'm dealing with Parent-Child Separation Anxiety! Long story short, Leanna is all over my mind while I'm in class!!! She is in the center, like feet away the classroom I'm in. But in these past 3days, I've seen her interaction with others and I really don't enjoy it. She's a lonely kid when it comes to a group. It's probably because she doesn't know theses kids. Leanna's the friendliest kid I know!!! So, when I peeked out and say her lonely as can be, almost looking sad. I had my heart on standby, because I just wanted to run out there and grab here. But my brain was being rational. She deals with it in her own way, I assume. She doesn't say "NO" when I tell we are going to the center...Soo, I hope she can deal with it until I'm done with training or at least get more comfortable with it. OH, I applied for KMART again, and have an Interview Tuesday!!! I hope I get it, even it's a few hrs a week!! I'd be hella happy!! We shall see....Baking, it's our new "mommy & me time" so, we ventured and it was somewhat successful. LOL! Leanna had fun helping and licking away the mix and frosting. We'll get the hang of it :D Here's our creative cake with candy toppings from our Halloween candy. Above are cupcakes!
