Oh, Papi...

[Heartache]
Midweek, I completed by busy evening with a CRYING session. MAJOR tears, heartache all the works. It's been 2mths since Dad got in a terrible health situation while visiting family in Mexico. He was just hours from heading out to the bus for the airport. When he had a stroke and ended up unconscious. That lead to him being in a coma, which caused stress on a vein, or something in his brain. That ultimately lead to major head surgery to stop it from bursting. Being in Mexico, it ridiculous, the health care is horrible. Wanting money up front, regardless, he received all the health care he needed to keep everything going. My mom went to Mexico almost 3weeks after this to be with him and to see if she could bring him back to the US. His condition was still critical while recovering from surgery. After 9 days in Mexico, she was unable to bring him back. My mom is a MESS, she is a stay at home mother and has never had a job. My dad was the provider. She had JUST lost her mother about 2 weeks before all this happened with my Dad. She's making it as much as possible. I cant even imagine what she is going through. I'm all the way over here and I feel pretty damn worthless. I find myself struggling with everything, that's why I'm so exhausted. I don't know what to say or feel anymore towards my mom. I don't know how to talk to my family some days. Some days, I just let it consume me...other days I have it in the back of my head. But my dad is always on my mind. I wish he was home. My mom said he is making some progress, he is basically recovering from the stroke and surgery. So, having to do rehab and who knows how much he is capable. They said he is able to be flown out to the US. And the charitable organization that my aunt found, is charging $10,000 for the flight from Mexico hospital to a Houston hospital. It's just soo stressful knowing that we don't have those funds available and then his family saying that he isn't leaving..DRAMA!! I just can't handle it some days!!


Ahhhhh