[Happiness is Me]

[Tuesday December 16, 2008] We went this morning for the first ultrasound. In order to determine how far along I was and the due date. Well, to my surprise it was pretty accurate to what we had already determined. I am 11weeks & 5 days. The due date is JULY 4TH!

It was rather instresting because, I've never had that type of ultrasound before. You can just imagine. Leanna saw the baby and I think she understood but then again who knows. We also saw the heart beating and even got to HEAR it! I was amazed and friggin HAPPY!!

After the ultrasound was completed, I began to mention my concerns for my morning sickness and such. He said hmm, possibly it's a boy since the symptoms are different from being pregnant w/Leanna. Then he said the heartbeat was slower, so there lies the possibility. We shall see....

Time Flies

So, it's been a few since i posted anything. I've been blogging on myspace rather than here. Hmmm...Let's see. As i sit here typing away, leanna is behind me dancing , shaking her thang to Beyonce's "single ladies". She refers to the songs as, the "UH-OH UH0H song". That's too hilarious!
Today has been a challenging day to say the least. It was one of the worst days of "morning sickness" thus far. I woke up rather early, due to his cell phone alarm going off & off. So, I was beyond annoyed. Leanna woke up about 10minutes later and since I had napped alot the day before. I was pretty awake&starving. I absolutely hate waking up feeling the starving sensations, it's disgusting!! blah blah. So, he finally made me some breakfast about 9ish. I ended up puking it out after 2 hrs or so. And after that the day feel to an utter disgust accompanied w/exhaustion! I managed through the day lounging on the couch in&out of naps and watching lil tv. I can't necessarily rest w/Leanna running wild and being obnoxiously loud. It's about 9pm and I still have a slight headache. Ok my keyboard is acting up and it's annoying me!!

Ho! Ho! Ho!

WOW, I've gotten quite a bit accomplished for this festive holiday!!! Let's see, we did some bargained Christmas shopping this past weekend! I purchased a few festive items yesterday along with items to make m y very own WREATH. I started with setting up by bar area with my holiday items, with candy in the jars (Chocolates&Peppermints). Then making the wreath was a tad challenging but I did it! It was my first time ever and it turned out pretty good. I'm PROUD! Today, I started off by cleaning the living room/dining room. I had to change out the fall table cloth with the Xmas tablecloth, vacuuming, rearranging..WHEW. Leanna was being a butthead but I cLeaned! The tree was purchased in the early evening today and we decorated. I still trying to figure out if I want to add more. I guess, I'll see once I get to the store and see what they have to offer. Uhmm...Next, wrapping the gifts we've gotten so far!! This year we opted for surpirses and basically told each other what we would like. I spent carelessly last month and in guilt said those ITEMS i purchased could count as my gifts. ahhaa. PLUS, I got what I was really wanting...a BABY growing in my belly and my favorite two along side! SO, I couldn't ask for anything more. Blah blah blah...He picked out his items, purchased. I was forced to pick something at the store..soooo..I shameless did. And I'm going to love it..HAHA!

In the search for a gift for myself. I found my Mommy-to-be handbag!
::ECSTATIC::

About a week n a half before Leanna was delivered, He surprised me with a handbag. I had been eyeing that handbag for about a mth, oohing and awwing over, A beautiful Dooney & Bourke...it was like $200 and something. To my COMPLETE surprise i got it ALONG with the matching wallet! SOOOoooo, I took it upon myself to make it a "MUST" and anxiously shared with him, my next D&B handbag, it was only $238. I didn't find the wallet there in store. But of course, I found it online, another $100 and something...So, I am anxiously awaiting for that..LOL!

I'm not materialistic, I PROMISE!

"Belly Laughs"

Best book ever, It was roughly 200 pages of hilarious reading. I've heard of the book, the author;Jenny McCarthy but never read it. Until last night, thanks to Christina!! I started reading it in the 930ish hr, till bout 11. Then picked it up as soon as I woke up this morning. I seriously laid in bed for an entire hour + some minutes while Leanna watched Dora. Then I started feeling a bit quesy and had to get my ass outta bed. [breakfast was needed] I made LeaNna and I a scrumptious meal complete with O.j. Which is becoming one of the greatest drinks to taste in the A.M. I never did enjoy it since it always made me use the bathroom right away but with the pregnancy it's changed. After my meal, I ran over to the couch to open up that book. Leanna was still sitting at the table finishing up her meal. I was hooked back in turning page after page! Of course, I was easily distracted with that wild 2yr old. So i went back and forth. I got a call from Esha, in the middle of our call I got a call, so i clicked over. Worst news ever! My first friggin prenatal appointment was rescheduled! I was distraught... super pissed! I had been looking foward to that damn appt, for 2 whole weeks! I am techincally 9wks at this point and wanted to CONFIRM if I was further along!!! So, there I was being reFREAKINscheduled, another 2 weeks later! I already hate this doctor and I havent even met him. He is like the only OBGYN in town, and HE so happens to have an EMERGENCY cSection and wouldn't be back in the afternoon. Doesn't a freaking Csection take like 30min. Anyways, I was pretty damn upset, My day was ruined, I was just annoyed. I continued to read the book thereafter, watched my soap opera and read during commercials. I basically finised the book around 1:30..way too many distractions.
I ABSOLUTELY enjoyed the book, I didn't want it to end!!!
I'm going to google it, because I think she was gonna have a postpregnancy book or something.

::impatiently waiting for 2weeks::

"first day"

Describe a "first day" in your life (first day of marriage, of school, at a new job, etc.)

My first day as a mother, I was a bit overwhelmed. I was still in shock of having a child to begin with. But the more N more I looked at the little human-being, the more I knew everything was going to okay. I feel in love with Leanna and have been DAILY ever since! I have an overflowing amount of joy, love and happiness when it comes to being her mother.

Days past

Whoops, So it's been some days since I've written anything. UGhhh...ttummy aches have restricted me from even wanting to sit in front of the PC. I'd rather j ust lay in bed or on the couch. Anywho, I did some rearranging today. Since, leanna has been a pain in the butt with bedtime. She has been making a habit of playing with her toys. So, I took half of the toys out of her room and moved them over to the office. That was this morning, along with cleaning that disaster zone. Since, I moved most of her toys in the office, I had to move out the chair and ottoman. I was puzzled as to where I would place it, since it's 2 big pieces of furniture. Somehow I manages to place them in the living room, Therefore rearranging the other two couches and TV! It's a little strange having a whole new piece of furniture in that room. Because it's soo limited and all 3 couches are pretty long. I managed to rearrange and vacuum with that lil brat running around crazy. I even heard a "WOW!" from here a few times. It was new and completely different to her. NOw, that's it a lil more open, well I should say a bit more seating space. And the way I set up the chair w/ the ottoman. I can totally see the 52" at the wall across from "my seat" ...I cant wait until we get that friggin TV, it's going to look BEAUTIFUL and complete the living room. Along with whatever other decore I decide to hang. Then again, there's the possible move to temp housing. WHEVER they decide to install A/C. iughhh...That's a whole other topic that quite frankly I am not looking foward to anymore...Here is it 2:28pm and I put :Leanna down in her room for NAPTIME at 1pm...She is still not sleeping and instead playing with her toys, singing and chatting. I'm a little irritated, okay, ALOT irritated..

Aches & Pains

So, I'm sitting here while they both take a considerably "late" nap. My friggin neck has been aching since this morning and if I tell him to PLZ massage it, he starts bitchin. UGh, talking about, ughh, I guess Rosanna only because you're pregnant". Friggin IDIOT, I rarely say anything when he asks me to massage/rub his feet or scratch his back??!?! wth, only lately have I been sayin NO, b/c I'm irritated when he's up in my space. LOL...the whole breathing thing for me to COOL down doesn't neccessarily work unless I'm thinking clearly before I go on a rampage of Anger.

::BLAH::

I had an interview with KMART this morning at 9:30. I didn't get out of bed until about 8:40, It took me about 30 to even get out and that's after he made me a toast w/jam. CUz I was getting the nauseous feeling that I was gonna BARF! [[yuck]] Got dressed and rushed out the door about 9:15, once I drove off, I realized. CRAP, I hadn't had anything to drink, NADA. I was thirsty & had a yucky flavor in my mouth. Luckily, I found a jolly rancher and had at it. I got there 5 min before 9:30 and sat until I was assisted in the employees area. Uhmm, some lady, came to me with my printed online application and 2 other pieces of document for me to review and correct if need be. I waited, I was getting restless b/c they had the tv on CNN and BUSH was on talking about Veteran's Day.....Uhmm, I wanted to Zzzzz. I was listening to most of his speech and I felt quite proud, b/c my husband is a Veteran and as his spouse. BuSH also honored the military families...So, I got chocked up a little. hehe.

The interviewer called me in. AND I was honestly exhausted at this point, I perked up a little and continued to answer her questions. I had about 5-6 detailed questions to answer like examples of this and that. BLAH, Overall, I felt like a failure...I got confused with the last sentence about integrity ...and couldn't bounce back gracefully. I felt like a total dumbass even after she said it was okay. She didn't have any other question after that and gave me the spill about having other applicant to review and positions open. Also telling me we'll give you a call or not in 2 weeks. Booooo...I left feeling unconfident and even more tired.

F*ck KMART! ...I still hope I get a job there.... LMAO

Child

What affect has a child, whether yours or someone else's, had on your life?

[I have 60seconds.]

Leanna has had a great impact on my everyday living. I am no longer breathing for myself, I am breathing along with her. I love that I got pregnant, enjoyed that beginning of motherhood and now I'm faced with the everyday challenge of RAISING HER! I love everything about it even it's ups and downs.

[60seconds is UP!]

Potty Training & Tutu's

So, I'm sitting here listening to Leanna's CD and watching her, feeling the air as she SPINS. I'm super dizzy even though I'm not paying attention to her, I can see her in the corner of my eye. I'm also encouraging her to use the potty!! She has a pair of undies and isn't taking it quite serious...since right now she is sitting on the toilet just making the PSssss sound and saying I'm peeing! She already had an accident. She came over to me and said, "Mama, I needPEE!" I grabbed her picked her dress up as I was about to take the undie s down ::SPILL::, I caught most of it on my hand. OH, the joys of motherhood. LOL So, here I am asking her every 10second, "do you have to pee Leanna??!!!" Whew...ON the other hand, I'm online searching for How to on TUTU's...I found a site that has pic instructions. haha, the easiest instructions ever! Since, I won the TUTU at that Holiday Party Show, I was inspired PLUS Leanna loves dressing up! So, why not learn how to make them, super easy. All I need is a few materials. TOOL being ths most important!!

PerfectlyContent

Perfectly; completely; fully; adequately.

Content; satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.

And that's exactly how I feel in the moment. Even with my eyes feeling teary after putting chopped onion away 20min ago.. jeje. I had my release appointment today. And for the first time in past appointments, I feel relieved. Like, I really released a good amount of anxiety, stress, and anger off my shoulders. Don't get me wrong I still want to fall under my blanket and cry my eyes out....but who doesn't now and then. I'm on this crazyass ride of a roller coaster. Seriously, why am I going this craziness this EARLY on! Whew..maybe just maybe because "I am overwhelmed" ... there you have it. Even if it's not the overwhelming feeling I think of when I say that word, like have tons to do; keeping the house clean, making sure Leanna has a clean diaper, feed, entertained, laundry...not that. It's the overwhelming feeling of emotions going through this body and mind of mine! It's the rush of feeling pouring outta my heart...Isn't that insane?!? I have all these emotions that just make me want to burst out in tears. Is it really the hormones or what?! Whatever, I'm ready to just relax this week has been hectic to say the least. I started the in home daycare training classes. OMG, very informative, Adult CPR, Infant & Child CPR, and First Aid. I'm enjoying taking these trainings but at the same time, I'm dealing with Parent-Child Separation Anxiety! Long story short, Leanna is all over my mind while I'm in class!!! She is in the center, like feet away the classroom I'm in. But in these past 3days, I've seen her interaction with others and I really don't enjoy it. She's a lonely kid when it comes to a group. It's probably because she doesn't know theses kids. Leanna's the friendliest kid I know!!! So, when I peeked out and say her lonely as can be, almost looking sad. I had my heart on standby, because I just wanted to run out there and grab here. But my brain was being rational. She deals with it in her own way, I assume. She doesn't say "NO" when I tell we are going to the center...Soo, I hope she can deal with it until I'm done with training or at least get more comfortable with it. OH, I applied for KMART again, and have an Interview Tuesday!!! I hope I get it, even it's a few hrs a week!! I'd be hella happy!! We shall see....

Baking, it's our new "mommy & me time" so, we ventured and it was somewhat successful. LOL! Leanna had fun helping and licking away the mix and frosting. We'll get the hang of it :D Here's our creative cake with candy toppings from our Halloween candy. Above are cupcakes!

[Halloween 08]

Happy Halloween
Trick or Treat!


Leanna had her first "official" trick or treating experince this Halloween! Plus, it was daddy's first Halloween with us. Technically this is her 3rd year. Anywho, she was uberly cute, as a bumble bee even though, I was a bit rushed getting her ready but you couldnt tell. She was having the greatest time in the world UNTIL she realized she'd have to walk from house to house. Then the tantrums started either she didnt want to walk on her own OR hold the pail. Booo, I was done about 30min into the event. But I held in, we took turns walking to the candy and carrying her. Then after almost an HR we headed back home to hand out candy of our own! It was a festive event...we had a good time catching up with some of the gals. Crystal being one of them, Noah looked adorable in his Skunk Costume. I was hoping to dress up myself but there's always next year. And by then Leanna will have a better understanding of what halloween is. We'll also have another lil person to dress up PLUS Bonita {our dog}! We will totally be having fun!! I can't wait until Halloween 09.

Leanna & Mommy

Leanna & Daddy

[[Photo taken by Crystal]]

Luna

1) Where did you meet? (the first time)
At my job, through his ex SIL

2) How long did you date before you were married?
Date, hmm, I'd say about 9mths...long distant relationship

3) How long have you been married?
4yrs

4) What does he do that surprises you?
He'll ask if I need help..

5) What is your favorite feature about him?
His everything, I still get butterflies

6) What is your favorite quality about him?
Geez, he can be understanding and sweet

7) Does he have a nickname for you?
Baby

8) What is his favorite color?
Red

9) What is his favorite food?
Country cooking and BBQs

10) What is his favorite sport?
Football

11) Who said "I love you" first?
We both discussed it. LoL

12) When and where was your first kiss?
Approximately 2weeks after talking and spending time together, At his cousin's place.

13) What is your favorite thing to do together?
Watch movies and be lazy

14) How old is he?
26

15) Do you have any kids?
1 daughter and another kiddo on the way :D

16) What is a hidden talent he has?
hidden.hmm...he is a genius

17) What is his favorite type of music?
r&b

18) What do you admire most about him?
He a damn good father!

19) Do you think he is going to read this?
Noooo

Just Me

Who am I;

First of all, I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, a wife and a mother. I am 24yrs old and I'd like to think I am super easy-going. I love being a lazybutt being online or watching tv. When I want to feel accomplished, I clean and I mean CLEAN! I like to keep neat but with a crazy hyper 2yr old that hardly ever happens. I have been married for 4 wild years and we have known each other for 5yrs. I've lived in Hawaii, San Diego and now China Lake, CA. I'm originally from TX and the oldest of quite a few siblings. Uhm, that's about it.

{{the above photo was taken by Leanna Sun Oct 12 08}}